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Coffee, brandy, fear, and conversation collapse together here into a small scene where distress becomes the reason to speak.

The page is intimate but unsettled. Everyday substances sit next to dread, and the emotional turn comes in the claim that horrible events brought the speaker inward rather than driving him away. What matters is not just fear itself, but that fear becomes the path toward address: toward talking to 'you.'

This reading remains provisional because the page transcript is partial/OCR-uncertain. Over 'Coffie and / Columbian brandy' the speaker admits that the 'Scarry' Juan and 'its horrible / events' are precisely what 'brought me / in, so as to talk / to you,' making distress the occasion for intimacy.