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By Jack Joseph Smith

Forward Back When I walked out to make a Journal I never suspected the meaning of it When I talked as a kid about giving I slashed my fist 500 times to the cops head When I ran as a child I was more interested in burning than baseball When I was even smaller I said I hate sentimental tunes As a child I knew exactly why I was wild While coming to be an adult I fell in love too early Now instead of being on the sea I am on a windowsill Yes, truthful and old enough toward calling job people ‘policemen With my teeth tinted wavey green

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Childhood rebellion hardens into an adult self-portrait of thwarted intensity, where violence, refusal, and restless truth remain but no longer have open ground.

The repeated "When" builds a history of impulses that are anti-authority, anti-sentimental, and drawn to burning more than play. Adulthood does not erase that wildness; it compresses it, leaving the speaker on a windowsill instead of at sea. The result is both comic and sad, especially in the final details, where self-description becomes awkward, bodily, and stubbornly truthful.

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'Forward Back': autobiography told as a list of childhood commitments — slashing a cop's head in fantasy, hating sentimental tunes, wildness as plan.

The poem argues that the adult is not the sum of the child's choices but the direct continuation of them. 'I am on a windowsill' instead of 'on the sea' is the settling admission; the child's plan is being executed at reduced scale. 'Teeth tinted wavey green' is the closing self-portrait that keeps the poem from self-pity.