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By Jack Joseph Smith
By Jack Joseph Smith
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This page turns sorrow into swagger, mysticism, cowboy identity, racial self-mythology, and a dream of standing outside ordinary responsibility.
The restored ending makes the boast stranger and more local. It wants freedom from duty, but that posture keeps circling Pittsburgh, Jesus, history, and the speaker's need to be forgiven.
'Akin' is a self-mythologizing boast built on the Whitman-like 'I am' anaphora, but its bravado keeps doubling back into need. Sorrow here is paradoxically generative - 'My sorrow does not send me back into sorrow' - and the speaker claims a charmed idleness: 'I am the cowboy dream, I am the wrangler / I have left responsiblity', 'has gained fame for doing nothing', 'the star, / that never had to try'. Yet the grand titles keep undercutting themselves - 'I am at best serving at a soup kitchin', 'I only / start to stop the beginning of the end' - and the boast turns confessional with 'forgive me, I am the first white Indian there ever was'. The closing yokes Jesus, 'Marco Polo and James Joyce' as interchangeable, then drops back into the same Pittsburgh refrain, 'I mean Pittsburgh, Pa, he really would say that'. The key line 'dreams do not work backwards' anchors the swagger to a real loss. Source spellings 'gultch', 'responsiblity', 'metphor', 'kitchin', 'Loard', 'intellagence', and 'differance' are preserved.