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The beyond is always there. It's the recognition of beauty that gives meaning to pain. Mankind would not endure, if there was no belief in light. It is many times not reached because man seldom has the strength to go beyond faith. But the spirit is always waiting to shine and it can only take so much darkness. Sometime there will have to be a final explosion for you, or death. I am also talking about myself Michael, but in a different way. In a sense, you have already accepted the light. Yes. I haven't and I know that. I find it very difficult to believe in God anymore. The trip to South America was a hell journey. My father must have taken thirty of his business friends. At this point that word, business friend, is calm. Gangsters is the best I can presently come up with. One guy told me a story about how he made it. When he came back from the war, he had made enough money gambling and hussling to buy some fancy clothes and play awhile. He started moving around in the racket money circles. He was a good boxer. People got to know him. Outside of town, they had a ring set up in an old barn. Only the in people knew where it was. The rich knew and they came from all over. The gangsters asked him to be a gladiator. If he fought for one year, they would give him a setup. One year under the lights, between the fat faces of the rich. Fighting bare fisted, until he or his opponent was down for the night or dead. Do you know what a cat walk is Daniel? No. It's a runway just below the ceiling, where men walk with tommie guns to protect the money being tossed on the floor. He fought under those guns every other night for a year. That was his business orientation. He's one of the better business people.