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130 person may be able to rationalize that :paim, but his only real understanding of it is his builé up renenberfgnce of other pains following during his life, It all becomes :disrelated, He is perceiv@ing the initial pain through the feelings of many other eventss. If to begin with, the pain was in the mind and at that point of mental pain, the person was stung, is what has happened is that the direetion of the agony has been interrupted; Something has taken the place of what began at the source of reality TLlusiony has taken over, because the real pain and where it was coming from,!has been cast aside, The experiences. of the senses is strongy, byt unless a man understendSwhat is driving him toward those experiencess. he will never feel the full sensual experience, Mind and body are both sensitive, By fight ing, you are not letting your mind experience sensitivity qi the level it demandss The longer you fight because of mental agony, the longer the mental agony will continue, Fighting is something that is done after all points of the sensitive ; mind have fulfilled themselves,. Before that is reached, fighting is useless, Absurd, you might say, because you can never wing. I am going to get two more beers, J said, I walked to the bar and the lights seemed | to be shinmering, After 1 had sat downy + laughed and started talkings When I first started going to “ount Lebanon, we used to have road races down to West Virginias Bheeling was one of the towns we used to hity. but there were many ' more, We would wind through the back roads of the moumtain country singing Ghost Riders 1m he Skys.My hegd was filled with wine and I kmew I was charging out to death, Ihere was a wild man, with a red and white buick century, He would sing as he would race, Ghost Riders in the Sky, His throat woulda vibrate Like tne wneels yelling in their spinning madness over night rain. Soowtimes tae nignts would be Cpol black bike deal, and the depth of its presence would reach in your heart beneath