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The closing fragment reduces a whole life to one waking wish, leaving the sentence suspended before its object arrives.

Its incompleteness is part of its force. The line starts as a broad declaration about `my young American life` and then breaks off on `that`, so desire remains open, withheld, and larger than the surviving page.

A single typed fragment that frames a lifetime as one continuous waking wish - 'Through my young American life I have wished only in waking' - then snaps off on the bare conjunction 'that', so the object of the wish never arrives. The break is the meaning: youth, nationhood, and longing all stay pointed forward at an unspoken something, and the page ends as pure unresolved want.